Change of Plans

Day 16/90

I’ve changed my mind. I have something else I want to talk about today.

I had a customer come into the Wallpaper Mart. Wonderful lady. Her husband just passed away, and she’s planning a road trip to travel some because it was something they never got to do. She’s a a teacher, who happens to teach marine science at a high school. She has a book she’s gonna read during her travels, it’s about a marine biologists take on science with a hint of the authors personal spiritual beliefs.

We did no small talking - we got right to point. I shared my experience obtaining a bachelors in marine science. She questioned me on if I use the degree (since I am currently selling wallpaper). I told her that I kind of use it, aspects of it. Specifically, the way that I improved my writing skills and that I have continued writing since then.

This customer proceeded to tell me that I would make a great teacher. With the way I carry myself, the kids would respect me. That I could pass on my life long love of learning to them. That I could share with them the knowledge I was passionate about.

If I was in the market for a conventional job, I would do it! I love teaching. I loved my tutoring job. But teaching would be even better. I would have my own classroom. A few subjects I excel in that could be my focus. My own set of students, how awesome would that be. I would pour my all into it. I would be passionate about it. I would have so, so much fun. If it came down to it, no second thoughts, I would get a teaching job.

But I am not there right now.

I’m not trying to do something conventional.

I want to teach.

But in a totally different way.

I want to be a teacher that teaches about spirituality, and healing. How to expand yourself, and move in a different way. I want to teach things that help people totally rewrite the way they live their lives.

Same concept as before. I would love it! A few topics I master, endless passion for it, boundless fun getting to share such transformative information.

Yes, I have the passion to teach at a school. Yes, the path is laid out and I know exactly what moves to make to get there. Yes, it would be so easy to make that happen. And that is exactly why I know it’s not the path to take right now.

Yes, I have the passion to teach about spirituality. No, the path is not laid out and I don’t have any idea what step to take at times. This is the more challenging path. The more abstract, the more unknown path. The one that will take time to build. And that is exactly why I know this is the right path for me to take right now.

I have other options, and still everyday I choose to pour my heart into the one that frequently makes me feel challenged, discouraged, and at a loss. At the same time, this path has also brought me the greatest feelings of courage, accomplishment, and pride I have EVER experienced.

To me, walking the path that makes me face the taller mountains and steeper valleys is what this journey is all about.

Warmly,

Meg

Peaceful Heretic