A New Challenge

We all must start somewhere. And so, this is where I’m choosing to start. Today I am setting my next great challenge for myself – 90 days of writing something every day. It can be a page, a paragraph, or just a sentence. Anything, but I must write something.

To hold myself accountable, I am sending it out to all of you! And if I miss a day, I have to send out two the next day to make up for it. A reasonable way to reprimand myself.

Topic wise, it will be whatever comes to mind for the day. Maybe a struggle I’m facing, maybe a milestone I hit, or anything in between.

If you’re feeling like it’s time for a challenge for yourself – join me in this! Something applicable to your personal goals and something you are looking to see growth within. Send me a reply with your personal challenge so that we can hold each other accountable.  

Day 1/90

The last two weeks I have been feeling very unmotivated and at a standstill about moving forward in my business.

Ever since my masterclass, I just had been feeling like the topic of discipline seems to be lacking substance. Like, I know it’s important and what I have to say could probably serve someone in some way. But with no other reason other than ‘it just doesn’t seem right’, I planned on taking a 180 degree turn and starting with a new topic.

I have so much more to say about a bunch of other topics, I should just start with one of them, right?

But where did this thought of switching gears start? A few days after the masterclass, when the excitement of having accomplished something new wore off and I was left in the space that followed. The downhill after the peak of the hill I had been climbing. And when I looked around, everything was the same. I felt nothing really came out of doing the masterclass. I didn’t have more followers, or anyone new on the mailing list, no new clients. I felt like I was in the same spot.

I sat with this. The feelings of uncertainty, of defeat, and disappointment. As uncomfortable as these feelings are, we have to give ourselves space to feel it.

And on the other side of it, I figured it out. There were two big things coming up here for me.

The first was the urgency to be successful. The urgency to have it all done and figured out.

Part of this journey of building my business is teaching me that - we are allowed to be on the way, building and working towards a desired outcome. This has been one of the biggest concepts I struggle with. The process, the in-between. I love having a finished, successful product to show the world. That way they know I did something. Without it, what if they think I’m doing nothing???

Something I will continue to struggle with, I’m sure of it. But it’s a belief I’m actively working on rewriting.

Deep down I know, as cliché as it sounds, that the journey is the reward. Every milestone I hit, every new thing I accomplish, every small way in which I grow along the way is the whole point of the journey. And regardless of the outcome, I have transformed myself along the way.

So, to help myself rewire this belief, instead of asking myself ‘Is it successful?’, I have changed the question to ‘Is it growing?’

Because I know as long as it is growing at least a little every day, success will eventually follow. And since the point of a new endeavor is the journey there, our focus should be those small steps along the way.

The second aspect at play here, I know what the next step is if I continue with the discipline topic, and it really just makes me uncomfortable. Reaching out to people – absolutely horrifying. And a really easy way to get out of this step? Jumping ship and starting from scratch with a new topic, duhh.

But if I really think about this, I will eventually hit this same wall and task with whatever topic I speak on. Because no matter how intimidating it is to me, it is simply the next step to take to grow my business.

Ironically, I also know that the thing you need to speak on is usually the thing you most need to learn… that was an awkward realization.

Here I am, talking about discipline, when I haven’t even had the discipline to do something I need to do just because it makes me uncomfortable.

It is an awfully good thing I’m human, and I get to struggle and learn along the way. No shame in that game.

So here I am, having the discipline to do the uncomfortable tasks and hod myself accountable for the things I know will help me grow.

Thanks for listening.

Warmly,

Meg

Peaceful Heretic